ninjapsammead

I've been writing a lot of angsty, non-slashy original things lately, and they're up at http://scleractinia.livejournal.com/ . You don't have to read it, but that's what I've been doing instead of writing about gay sex. However, a break up is imminent in my life and I am sure that I shall return to the slashy fold as a coping mechanism within a week or two.

So, I've got a work in progress up at ff.net. Life's been fucked up, and I haven't been writing, but I have been working my program and fucking an addict, so there's that. Learned a lot about anal. Good times. Hopefully, I'll be able to keep writing it, but this one is coming very slowly.

Title: Recovery in Twelve Acts

Author: Psammead

Rating: NC-17

Summary: Cas has been MIA since the whole Leviathan fiasco. Dean and Sam have to learn to cope in a world without demons after God comes home and cleans house post-Godstiel. Sam seems to adjust pretty well, Dean does not.

Notes/Warnings: Destiel, and Sabriel. Alcohol abuse, and then recovery. I wouldn't call it fluff or drama. Maybe flama? Druff? I dunno. Spoilers up to 7.02. I just always kinda wonder when I watch the boys drink on the show, what would happen if the world was saved and Dean had to face up to his alcoholism? The Sabriel part just sorta… happened. Inspired by gedry's 12 Steps, which can be found here: http://gedry.livejournal.com/tag/12%20steps

Disclaimer: I do not own Supernatural in any way, shape or form, and this is why. (This = gay sex)

http://www.fanfiction.net/s/7692065/1/Recovery_in_Twelve_Acts

Title: The Strange Face of Love
Author: Psammead
Summary: Pseudo-Canon: Dean and Cas have a relationship of sorts over the span of 3 years. They have that profound bond, but it’s not some chick-flick, one-true-love deal. It’s messy and painful, but desperately sweet. It's what could have happened off screen.
Rating: NC-17
Notes/Warnings: An attempt to stick to canon. Spoilers, massive, massive spoilers, as this fic runs concurrent with seasons 4, 5 and 6. Destiel, this chapter is alternately titled "6 times Psammead played in the Destiel tropes, and 1 time she didn't" Right after free to be. Could be read as a porny standalone, I guess.
Disclaimer: I'm not Kripke or Gamble, I obviously do not own Supernatural, Dean or Castiel in any way, shape or form, because if I did, it wouldn't suck right now.

( The Strange Face of Love 7/15 )

So, I met a guy, which is hilarious, really, because he heard me talking about fanfiction at work, and was like, "Wait, you write fanfic???" and turns out he dated a girl a while back who did as well, and then we started talking, and one thing led to another, he asked to see it, I finally agreed after many warnings that it was explicit, he was amused, and then we knocked boots. So, less time for writing, but my fanfic got me laid, which I think is awesome.

I am working on stuff. I swear. I'm working on a Dean-is-in-AA fic, a Dean-is-Buffy fic, a Dean/Cas/Jo fic, plotting some things for a wing!kink fic, and a My Little Hunter 'verse fic, but I'm doing these things very very slowly after I do actual life stuff. So, yep. Someday.

Title: The Strange Face of Love
Author: Psammead
Summary: Pseudo-Canon: Dean and Cas have a relationship of sorts over the span of 3 years. They have that profound bond, but it’s not some chick-flick, one-true-love deal. It’s messy and painful, but desperately sweet. It's what could have happened off screen.
Rating: NC-17
Notes/Warnings: An attempt to stick to canon. Spoilers, massive, massive spoilers, as this fic runs concurrent with seasons 4, 5 and 6. Destiel, this chapter has sex.
Disclaimer: I'm not Kripke or Gamble, I obviously do not own Supernatural, Dean or Castiel in any way, shape or form, because if I did, you would be watching this on HBO complete with swearing and sex instead.

Thank you!

( The Strange Face of Love 6/15 )

Title: The Strange Face of Love
Author: Psammead
Summary: Pseudo-Canon: Dean and Cas have a relationship of sorts over the span of 3 years. They have that profound bond, but it’s not some chick-flick, one-true-love deal. It’s messy and painful, but desperately sweet. It's what could have happened off screen.
Rating: NC-17

Notes/Warnings: An attempt to stick to canon. Spoilers, massive, massive spoilers, as this fic runs concurrent with seasons 4, 5 and 6. Destiel, straight up, although it acknowledges canon parings. Mostly schmoopiness, some hurt/comfort, some Dean/Cas/Pie, teeny bit of wingfic, eventual non-consent, but a lot of ooey-gooey romance, too, a little bit of everything, really. A lot of blasphemy. Basically, it started when I got fed up with all the AU silliness when it's so easy to see Dean and Cas being involved without violating canon. There's so much in the show that seems to just be unspoken, or incomplete, and as a rabid fangirl, I needed to fill the gaps. (insert joke about the boys filling my gaps here)

Disclaimer: I'm not Kripke or Gamble, I obviously do not own Supernatural, Dean or Castiel in any way, shape or form, because if I did, you would be watching this on HBO complete with swearing and sex
instead. There is a great deal of canon and certain lines of dialogue referenced in my fic, used solely to establish when in the timeline of the series the scenes occur. I figure, if you're reading this, you're obviously a fan of the show, and should know exactly what I didn't come up with on my own. In addition, I reference several classic rock songs and various movies/books. A list of credits will be provided at the end.
Thank you!

( The Strange Face of Love 5/14 )

Title: Records, Running, and Redemption
Author: Psammead
Summary: It would’ve been nice to assume they lived happily-ever-after in the land of bubblegum pop and skinny jeans, wouldn’t it? But no, relationships are hard, substance abuse is harder. Luckily, pop music heals all wounds.
Rating: NC-17
Notes/Warning: AU, Destiel, third and final installment in what I have now termed the Alliterative Bubblegum ‘verse. I was driving home and listening to See You Again by Miley Cyrus, and then Speak Now by Taylor Swift came on, and then The One That Got Away by Katy Perry, and that was the point at which I decided my iPod ships Destiel, too. Despite the depressing summary, I promise, more fluffy fluff-fluff.
Disclaimer: Not my sandbox, I just pee in it frequently.
 
( Records, Running and Redemption )

Title: The Strange Face of Love
Author: Psammead
Summary: Pseudo-Canon: Dean and Cas have a relationship of sorts over the span of 3 years. They have that profound bond, but it’s not some chick-flick, one-true-love deal. It’s messy and painful, but desperately sweet. It's what could have happened off screen.
Rating: NC-17

Notes/Warnings: An attempt to stick to canon. Spoilers, massive, massive spoilers, as this fic runs concurrent with seasons 4, 5 and 6. Destiel, straight up, although it acknowledges canon parings. Mostly schmoopiness, some hurt/comfort, some Dean/Cas/Pie, teeny bit of wingfic, eventual non-consent, but a lot of ooey-gooey romance, too, a little bit of everything, really. A lot of blasphemy. Basically, it started when I got fed up with all the AU silliness when it's so easy to see Dean and Cas being involved without violating canon. There's so much in the show that seems to just be unspoken, or incomplete, and as a rabid fangirl, I needed to fill the gaps. (insert joke about the boys filling my gaps here)

Disclaimer: I'm not Kripke or Gamble, I obviously do not own Supernatural, Dean or Castiel in any way, shape or form, because if I did, you would be watching this on HBO complete with swearing and sex
instead. There is a great deal of canon and certain lines of dialogue referenced in my fic, used solely to establish when in the timeline of the series the scenes occur. I figure, if you're reading this, you're obviously a fan of the show, and should know exactly what I didn't come up with on my own. In addition, I reference several classic rock songs and various movies/books. A list of credits will be provided at the end.
Thank you!

( The Strange Face of Love 4/14 )

Title: The Strange Face of Love
Author: Psammead
Summary: Pseudo-Canon: Dean and Cas have a relationship of sorts over the span of 3 years. They have that profound bond, but it’s not some chick-flick, one-true-love deal. It’s messy and painful, but desperately sweet. It's what could have happened off screen.
Rating: NC-17

Notes/Warnings: An attempt to stick to canon. Spoilers, massive, massive spoilers, as this fic runs concurrent with seasons 4, 5 and 6. Destiel, straight up, although it acknowledges canon parings. Mostly schmoopiness, some hurt/comfort, some Dean/Cas/Pie, teeny bit of wingfic, eventual non-consent, but a lot of ooey-gooey romance, too, a little bit of everything, really. A lot of blasphemy. Basically, it started when I got fed up with all the AU silliness when it's so easy to see Dean and Cas being involved without violating canon. There's so much in the show that seems to just be unspoken, or incomplete, and as a rabid fangirl, I needed to fill the gaps. (insert joke about the boys filling my gaps here)

Disclaimer: I'm not Kripke or Gamble, I obviously do not own Supernatural, Dean or Castiel in any way, shape or form, because if I did, you would be watching this on HBO complete with swearing and sex
instead. There is a great deal of canon and certain lines of dialogue referenced in my fic, used solely to establish when in the timeline of the series the scenes occur. I figure, if you're reading this, you're obviously a fan of the show, and should know exactly what I didn't come up with on my own. In addition, I reference several classic rock songs and various movies/books. A list of credits will be provided at the end.
Thank you!

( Strange Face of Love 3/14 )

I started writing the Strange Face of Love months before I posted anything. Now that I've been at it for.. shit, it's been 5 or 6 months, already. It's a little amazing and a little depressing, now that I've gotten into this whole livejournal thing how many of the themes and ideas I put in there have already been explored by other authors, some brilliantly talented, some not so much (but A for effort and all that).

It's depressing because I want to be original and unique, and it's disheartening to think my writing will never be as good as some, or that people might read this epically long labor of love and think, "Oh, she's just copying such and such". It's also depressing because when I started writing, I hadn't watched season 6 at all, and if I had, I never would have started, because Castiel's story arc is so depressing, and it's almost been too much emotion and sadness for me to edit the last few chapters. Don't get me wrong, I loves me some good dubcon, but I don't enjoy writing it. I like writing happily-ever-afters.

It's amazing because there are themes in the show that are obvious to all of us as fans, themes that unite us in this beautiful, psychotic thing we call fandom. It's a testament to the unspoken conversations Jensen and Misha give us with their eyes, to the level of care that goes into the crafting of the show, that people all over the worlds can watch, and feel incredibly strong emotions about these characters, it's even beautiful that a person can watch and see subtext in Dean/Sam, Sam/Gabriel, Dean/Cas, any pairing, based on the love the creators have for their fan base. It's amazing that we can take something as simple as a slice of pie, a throwaway mention of pink panties, or an intense gaze, and then write thousands of words detailing what it means to us, each piece a variation on that theme.

But damn. I am starting to get burned out on the sadness. I wish I'd boarded the ship earlier, when things were still happy. Season 6 just bums me the fuck out, man.

Destiel, I wish I could quit you.